"Faith"

Many of you don't know me, but currently I'm preparing to take the biggest test of my life. I just graduated from nursing school and am in pursuit of taking the dreaded NCLEX to get that RN behind my name. Nursing school has been one of the hardest tasks I have ever had the privilege of accomplishing. It took a mental toll, as well as a physical toll. Waking up at 4:30 to travel to different healthcare facilities, getting home at 8 to study for a test the next day, and then worrying, hoping, praying about your test grades over the weekend was stressful. What do you do when all the answers on the question you're answering are right, but there is one that is the "best?" I had a certain candle I burned while studying for tests, and now every time I smell that scent I get PTSD of it being a long night of studying Medical-Surgical Nursing. During my first semester, I had doubts that I would make it through the program. I was struggling, had failed my first two test and nothing seemed to be going right. Until a thought I couldn't get away from was preached by my pastor, and then my brother and it was something my fingers just seemed to be turning to in scripture.

Matthew 17: 20 KJV, " And Jesus said unto them, Because of your unbelief: for verily I say unto you, If ye have faith as a grain of mustard seed, ye shall say unto this mountain, Remove hence to yonder place; and it shall remove; and nothing shall be impossible unto you."

God knew exactly what I needed, if only I had opened my eyes sooner. After submitting myself, and acknowledging how big my God was/is and imagining what would happen if my faith in Him was bigger than a mustard seed. These small test are nothing to what He can do. That next week, I made a 93 on the hardest test of the semester and brought my grades up to passing.

Sometimes He just wants you to see, it doesn't take a lot, it just takes faith a small as a mustard seed.

The past couple weeks I feel like I' have been holding in my anxiety, I am slowly but surely studying for this big test. Tonight, I just asked God to give me something. I have been so worried, so... scared. Turning into my Bible, God laid my hand on some notes I took during a sermon. One of the Bible verses written said, "And all things, whatsoever ye shall ask in prayer, believing, ye shall receive." (Matthew 21:22 KJV) He is so great and mighty and wonderful. He is certainly an awesome God because I stand in amazed at what He does and wonder why He would love me. As soon as I felt like I had got through my little praise session, I looked at the verse right above, and He said:

Matthew 21:21 KJV“Jesus answered and said unto them,Verily I say unto you, If ye have faith, and doubt not, ye shall not only do this which is done to the fig tree, but also if ye shall say unto this mountain, Be thou removed, and be thou cast into the sea; it shall be done.”

I have no words, but tears. Tears of joy and of gratitude and of triumph! He is bigger than any mountain we face. He just simply asks you to have faith in Him and trust Him.